I can be very hard on myself as a mom.
I can also be very hard on myself as a follower of Christ.
I have days when I don’t have any patience.
I have days where I say things I wish I hadn’t.
I have days were I am easily annoyed and sigh a lot.
Much like Paul wrote, I do things I don’t want to do and don’t do things I want to do.
I am in a constant battle against my flesh and sometimes that battle makes me question myself.
The enemy hisses in my ear—
“You are failing as a mom”
“How will you ever show them how to walk in the Spirit if you can’t even do it?”
“You are weak”
“You aren’t worthy of calling yourself a follower of Christ”
Lies echo in my mind, and if I am not careful I start to believe them.
But as the enemy hisses my Savior
calls out louder. He speaks above the lies, and He reminds me that I will forever be a sinner in need of grace. That perfection is not attainable to anyone but Him.
He whispers that I will teach my girls to live under grace. That I will show them what it means to say I’m sorry and how to ask for forgiveness.
He shows me that my brokenness will give me chances to speak about the battle that rages around and within us. That I will teach them what it means to be constantly dependent on a perfect Savior.
I was never called to be perfect, I was
only called to be His.
No, my girls won’t ever see a perfect mom in front of them, and I will never be the perfect Christian but what I always will be is a woman who is fully dependent on her loving God.
I will show them what it looks like to cling to Him, and to be full of repentance and eventually my daughters will see the broken pieces of my heart falling away and becoming new.
They will see His transforming power,
and so will I.
He will sanctify me and teach me daily what it means to die to my flesh.
It will take a a lifetime but He will continue to work on me until completion and I believe my children will bear witness to that process.
And they too will recognize how badly they also need a Savior and it will bring hope that they
too can change.
So today when the enemy’s lies threaten me, I will clap back and tell him:
I am an imperfect person saved by grace,
loved fully by a perfect Savior,
with the Holy Spirit alive in me
and I am being renewed day by day.
And I will believe those beautiful truths above all of the lies, because I have been called out of the darkness and into His light. His light of amazing grace that I am safely covered under.
There is no room in my heart or life for lies of the enemy.
Be gone, Satan. You are not welcome here.
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